Khas untuk Abah

For my Abah, Mr Sainuri Hj Yahmin.

I don't have a typical story to write regarding how much u have to suffer to get us something to eat, because u are well educated; and that good job, great salary always awaits u. I also don't have a story of how I behave against your word, because as far as I know, I've always been a good daughter to u :P. Hurmm, and I also don't have a story of how u tried to console me when I did not get what I wanted, because u always thought us of how to be thankful with things we already had. I never cried under your arms because u have always thought me to be strong.

I might not remember how things were when I was little, but there are some recent memories I remembered about u.

Your first forehead kiss right before u travel to Hajj with mak when I was in high school. I cried all the way to Amat's school and home.

The time u show me your Master certificate and ask me to have one too, when I was in Matriks. (which I knew I already disappointed u with my bad marks)

The moment u say "I know it's hard for u to live and study here, I wish I could help make your surrounding better" right before u, mak and akak flew back from visiting me in Egypt.

I might not cry in front of u because of my guilt of having bad marks in Matriks, but I really am sorry from the bottom of my heart. I promise I'll never make u sad anymore.
U also might not see/ hear me cry because i misses u and the whole family whenever I am far but I always did. I cried everytime I left for KL to flew back to Egypt. I cried my eyes out when u all went back from visiting me here.
And in fact I am crying right now, writing this post after mak told me u look sad when none of your children wished u on Father's Day. I am sorry I did it again. Truly am. Also on behalf of the others.
U might never heard me say I love u, but I do.

Without u I won't be having this good background of religion & great school education in one of the best school in Sabah. Without u I won't be having this opportunity to further my studies in this country. Without u I won't be having this comfortable house and life I've been living in. Without u I won't be having good attitude that I get from u. Without u I am nobody.

Thank You for being such a wonderful father. And I'm really sorry for the all the things I did wrong. Happy Father's Day, Abah. I wish u all happiness in the world.